The expectation i find people have for my message is the typical glass-is-half-full talk. “Look! A paralyzed guy is doing cool stuff!” Yes, thats me, i guess, but my story and the thread of my being run much deeper than that. In all honesty, a lot of the time, when i'm out there surfing, skiing or exploring, i'm just trying to stay sane. I get blue and grumpy a lot and my coping mechanism is being active in nature. Don't get me wrong. I love it. Its who i am at my core, but sometimes it takes some serious self motivation to get passed my propensity for laziness, my innate human instinct to stay comfortable. I know how i feel when i choose to make the effort and it usually doesn't matter if i have the greatest time or not. Simply taking the initiative seems to make all the difference. The glass is not half full or half empty. It just is. Its what you do with it that matters. I choose living because the alternative sucks and when i do, my quality of life increases.
That's reality and i'm not going to deliver some cheese ball motivational talk. I'm going to be starkly honest with you about myself, my darkness, and how i choose to overcome it on a daily basis. My hope is that this motivates you to look deeply in the mirror and do the same because the biggest adventure we can go on, is within. I don't have some grand secret for you either. You know everything you need to know already. Its just a matter of learning to listen to yourself.
Embrace your humanity, every part of it. I'm not talking about what doesn't kill you makes you stronger either. What doesn't kill you is just your path…which you came here to walk. That is your purpose, to explore your darkest places. If your path is not difficult, then what's the point? The starkest lessons we learn are the ones from which we must crawl out from Purgatory.
Of course, finding balance is the key right? Well, if we are going to embrace our darkness then we need to equally embrace our light. This is where we find hope. The human will to survive is a very powerful thing, living in all of us, and you are capable of rising from deeper places than you ever imagined. The things you dread, may come true, and when you find yourself there, don't be surprised of how much you can actually handle. I've been there: dark hospital rooms, alone at night, facing my worst fears, wishing for it all to end…and here i am now, finding my life's purpose in my brokenness.
Every wave, every turn, every drop of sweat is that much sweeter for me, going through all the effort it takes to get there. The harder it is, the better it is, so ask yourself this, “If its not hard, then why am i doing it?” We put so much effort into making ourselves as comfortable as possible, but maybe thats the wrong direction.
Wether or not you live an inspired life is determined by how uncomfortable you are willing to get.
Drop in. Do what you love.